Guess who just got switched from student intern to federal employee status? I'm officially on the government's payroll. The man on my icon is officially my big big big boss.

Also Jon Meacham's speaking at Loeb today, which I'm pretty much obligated to attend on account of Newsweek being the only magazine I've ever really read. Also I had gumbo for lunch. It was good.

Also yet again I'm sick of whiny teenagers. There will always be someone better than you. Always. And if you can't accept this, you will never be happy. This is like, just a simple rule of the universe. Just like how all suffering is not equal, and some suffering is worse than others. So stop complaining about your petty, bourgeois existence already! Just work hard. Be kind. And shut up.

Happy birthday, you worthless loser. Except, you know, NOT. A worthless loser. Still kinda a jerk though, so! I mean, can we like, work on that? You have...roughly 10 months to turn the year around. Why not start by telling your bff that you still love him. I mean, yeah, sure, today is all about you -- but that's the point. Not everyone has your bff. ONLY -- you.

But yeah, still my favorite, still love you, blah blah blah -- look. Be happy. That's all everyone wants for you, you big-nose/ass/ego-ed COMPLETE moron. Askdfh.

Currently sitting in grad office which is not mine but my current girlcrush's who saw me camped out on the floor outside the room of the class that we have together and guys, she is SO. Pretty. Like, I just wanted to say that. I had an exam this morning, already know I got two questions wrong, but I felt GOOD about it which is...not really reliable, come to think of it, so basically it's a toss-up. I hate that. Nevertheless, ran into Fadi before class and he is totally my good luck charm, so, yeah. C'mon, universe. Also it's the guy on my icon's birthday (sorta, tomorrow?) and more on that later but I just want to say that I miss him, like, phantom-limb miss him. I'm worn down, I'm tired of it all, I just want him back.

About to run out of battery, good luck with your respective stuff for this week. ♥

TO MAG: This is a picture of a heart cake taken by a photographer who was born in Hong Kong and has won enough awards that the actual print of this is roughly six hundred dollars. I know you have expensive taste.

I know this because I've known you for a billion years even though we've only been speaking for the past five. You are such a good friend to me, I feel like this is such a bad case of you getting gypped. Thanks for everything (so far), and I seriously seriously love you, and please never ever stop writing.

And I hate how all these periods at the end of each sentence make me sound so solemn and dramatic, so have some RIDICULOUS fic: ( RIDICULOUS fic HERE )

FUCK IT, I'M OUT. You know what, I wasn't really anything beforehand but now it's just like, are you kidding me. OMONA go get a fucking LIFE and find out that not everything ever happens as it SHOULD (citation: Conan O'Brien!) jesus fucking christ also someone cure me bc why the fuck do I even care what they think. :(

Anyway, here's shortfic. It helps if you're listening to something like this. ( 4 universes Hanchul never existed in and 1 they did. Hanchul (duh). PG-13. 711 words. )

(via text)

ME: Hee's latest cy is depressing
CHELSIA: BOOOOOOOBS!
ME: HOW ARE YOU NOT EVEN A LITTLE SAD
CHELSIA: I havent read it
CHELSIA:

ME: What the/where are you
CHELSIA: Boobiesssss

Not really sure how she got to Myrtle Beach.

I feel like this is going to ruin my week/total mood killer/I am crushed/what in the fuck guys seriously/brb puking.

2010.02.04 00:28
Title : 水魚之交*

http://i48.photobucket.com/albums/f240/samahime/Cyworld/d3ca4953.jpg

There is no one will be beside me and give me a drink in hard time
There is no one will be beside me and laugh with me in happy time
There is no one will be beside me and cry with me in sorrow time
There is no one will be beside me and bicker with me everyday

* 水魚之交 (수어지교) a Korean idiom to describe a close friendship like water and fish or a friend you would die for.

2010.02.04 00:35
Title : 客窓寒燈*

http://i48.photobucket.com/albums/f240/samahime/Cyworld/5ec0f9d5.jpg

Practicing walking alone

* 客窓寒燈 (객창한등) a Korean idiom to describe the trouble of a lonely traveler

Actually, my reaction isn't as strong as I dictate. Which is like, so wrong on so many levels that I can't even articulate. Since when did, like, Heechul being unhappy is just considered a constant/okay? It's not okay. But what can be done.